GRIEF
first of all happy new year guys , I know I disappeared on you guys but let’s see how this year goes .
The last time I wrote a letter to you my loves was in august and that’s almost six months ago , life happened and I was just lost in the entire thing that surviving became priority for me as opposed to being productive sef .
The craziest thing happened a couple of months back when I lost my friend. This was my first time experiencing loss with someone so close and it broke me in the craziest ways possible .
For the first couple of hours I couldn’t really understand it and I think I was mostly in denial , I was scared but at the same time confused especially as the circumstances in which I lost this person was really really sad.
It took me about a couple of days before I started to come to terms with it and it has been the hardest part of life for me since then.
I think about him every single day , on some days I cry really hard and wish things turned out differently, on other days I stare at nothing and relive that horrible day , I remember his laughter and his face so vividly.
He was my ‘bestie’ like I called him , he wasn’t obligated to treat me right but he did always, I called him so randomly and he never complained, I could easily say I was hungry and he would make sure he finds me something to eat, I told him every and anything and trusted him to give the best advices .
I miss him so much , I miss calling him just because , I miss ‘bullying ‘ him .
They say it eventually gets better but I think that isn’t true , I have been told stories of akudayas and sometimes I wish he was able to go live somewhere else, I hope he is happy where he is currently, I hope he knows that regardless of the circumstances in which he left that we love him , that I love him , that I wouldn’t ever forget him .
Grief really is one of the hardest things to live with.one thing I’m grateful for is that in his lifetime and in the little time I knew him , he was loved and he knew he was.
Let the people in your life feel loved, spoil them, enjoy with them , tomorrow is not promised really .
Continue to Rest In Peace A❤️