Friendships as an adult
For me friendships are one of the most important and that’s why I’m very critical and careful when it comes to making friends.
As someone who has childhood trauma , I end up over loving on people even when they have done nothing to earn it, for me it is my way of healing my inner child and thereby loving people the way I wanted to be loved and guess who has seen Shege with friendships.
As an overthinker one thing about myself is before you see the wrong in me I have seen it for myself and as a people pleaser I would bend myself to breaking point to make sure I never offend you. This is just who I am
And then guess who was taken advantage of, time and time again people had taken that extreme love I showed for granted given they know it’s either I’ll never talk or I’ll beg just for peace to reign.
Over the years I’ve had severe friendship breakups as a result of the few times I choose to not apologize and it used to hurt so bad .
It got worse on the day I prayed that if there were friends who weren’t friends they should leave my life and that year I lost so many friends, I cried a lot even though I kept making the prayer and yes I understand that as a human there is no way I won’t offend people but I believed that the decision to be friends was enough to conquer whatever rift but I was wrong.
December 31st 2023 I made same prayer again ,( I lost some more friends) only that this time I asked for kingdom friendships and I asked for friends that I wouldn’t have to bend myself over and over again for . Friends that wouldn’t judge me , and people that took their time and were patient with me . I wasn’t really keen on even making friends as I was fine with my partner being my only friend but then I got really amazing people in my corner.
So shoutout to the four amazing girls in my life, seunfunmi prays for me , prays with me, dotes on me and maybe understands me more than I understand myself, I got my first godson and the sweetest toddler in the whole world from her ,Bolanle my self acclaimed therapist, technically my voice of reasoning,and the mother to the best godson ,mofiyinfoluwa my mother, the sweetest hugs, brings me sweet gists and is a constant reminder that God loves me and then Phoebe , my lover, my bestieeeee,always planning how to make me happy.
Not like I deserve any of this people but God knows I needed them and they came at the right time.
This is your time to also make that prayer , that God brings the best of the best into your yard. My prayer now is that this friendships last a lifetime.
Till I come your way again, Love , Mo💜